Sorry

I have been meaning to post everyday this week... Where has the time gone?  Tuesday I had my weigh in, and though it went well it was not as well as I wanted it to be.  I lost 1 lb and 1% body fat.  After my previous week I was hoping to duplicate that.

Yesterday was a very difficult day for me, after having my 'free' meal on Tuesday night I was up 3, yes 3 lbs :(  I wanted to die.  I thought oh well I will go to the gym and work it off and since most likely it is water weight I didn't fret too much. While I was at the gym I felt horrible.  Depressed and it was all I could do to get through my cardio.  The rest of my day I felt the same... I was speaking to my husband about how I was feeling and thought I should be happy since I have been working out, eating great etc.  He told me he just recently read an article about people who are over training and how they felt depressed.  Ah-Ha... that makes all the sense in the world to how I felt at that moment. As I went through the rest of my day, I considered what I was doing.  This is supposed to be fun, and yes thought it will be hard at times I can't and will not give up.  NO that would simply be the easy way out.

Today has been a better day for me, my work out felt great, my food has been 100% perfect, and I am feeling amazing.  Still up from the other night.  I've decided that I am not going to be having anymore 'free' meals, at least not for the next few weeks.  They make me retain water like it is nobody's business.  Then I am working my tail off and making myself crazy trying to loose all the water.... 

I also signed up for my posing classes, I start on Monday and can' wait... a bit nervous that I will have to have my bikini on, as well as my 5 inch clear heals in the aerobics room at Golds... EEEK!! Maybe this means I can go find a cute new one ;)

Happy Day!

Happy Easter!!

Happy Easter everyone!! I hope you all had a great weekend.  My weekend has been wonderful. Friday we went to Good Friday service. It was so beautiful. Saturday I had a great workout, I did my chest and triceps, and did a spin class for my cardio.  It was great.  I really wanted to get a second workout in, but the day got away from us.  This weekend was full of worship, family and food... yes food.  I am so proud of myself, I had maybe 5 jellybeans, and a 3 pieces of chocolate.  Perfect otherwise.  

This morning since the gym was closed we took the boys down to the trail by our house and went for an amazing walk/jog.  Surprisingly it was not too cold out. It was so nice to get that in since I was not really sure what I was going to do today without working out.  We went to brunch at Trav's family's house.  Since I was not going to eat, I decided to cook so I could smell all the yummy food.  I love cooking for everyone, it was great.  I was so proud not to have a plate full of food.  I did however have a half piece of bacon  EEK and a tiny muffin.... This is the most I have cheated in two weeks.  It could have been worse though.  My dad even had a beautiful ham tonight. That was hard to pass up but I held strong.

Knowing that others are watching me, encouraging me, and following me along the way helps me be strong.  I am looking forward to my weigh in on Tuesday.

Have a great night everyone.  I hope you all are enjoying the Easter candy at your houses ;)

It was so yummy I thought I was cheating

Yesterday I could not, repeat could not eat my tuna for my snack.... I wanted something yummy.  So I made me a protein shake, 1 scoop of whey protein, 6 oz water, cup of ice, 5 strawberries and 10 almonds.  Blended smooth.  It was like a milk shake.  So yummy!  I seriously felt like I was cheating.  

I saw a friend today at the gym, she was asking me how I was feeling.  This is what I had to say.... I am feeling great.  I love that I can stand up straight and feel my muscles working and holding my frame.  Also while I was in spin I loved how I could feel my muscles contracting... I am getting stronger and tighter.  This is so exciting!!  She told me when I reach my goal she wants to write into to Woman's Health magazine about my story.  WOW I feel so honored, that she would think my story was great enough to write about.

Every day is easier.  I was just thinking this morning how easy this has been so far, my desire for bad food is gone. My longing for the gym has grown, and I am bound and determined to reach my goal.  No matter what I have to do to get there, as long as it is healthy.  Just think in 8 weeks I will be on stage doing my thing and looking amazing.  

Thank you everyone for all your love, support, and encouraging words.  You are what keeps me going when I think that I can not any more. I also want to thank my husband Travis everyday, he is soo supportive of me doing this.  Even when I want to go to the gym twice a day.  (he will even let me go before him).  I can not leave out Thanking God either for giving my this healthy body, and for watching out for me while I go through this transformation.

 

Wow where has this week gone?

Hello everyone!  This week has been a busy one, not really sure why or how though.  I am so thankful for this weekend, it is so special to me, why you ask?  Because it is Easter, the death and resurrection of Jesus.  Isn't so amazing that  God sent his only Son to die for us? And by doing that Jesus was able to take ALL of our sins away?  I feel very lucky to have Jesus in my life and know that I would be not be where I am with out him. I don't know if you have a personal relationship with him, but if you don't and want to have one ask me.  Because it was not long ago that I didn't either.

On to my update.  My workouts have been great!  Last night I started running and felt like I could run for ever.  It was such a cool feeling.  Well today I am paying for it, my ankle hurts... not really sure what I did, I have been stretching after each workout, but I guess not well enough. :] I got a brace today and went for my second cardio and did the elliptical and the bike, I hope by resting it the remainder of the day it will feel better tomorrow.


As for my energy, during the morning I feel great, however by 2 or so I hit a wall and am so exausted.  I acutally took a really good nap with my 3 year old yesterday and it was heaven... except for all the stuff I wanted to do while he  and my 10 month old slept.... Oh well I must have needed the rest.


Now off to celebrate this weekend!  Happy Easter everyone!

Free Meal

Since Wes told me I could have a free meal I decided to take it tonight. I have ate perfect all day too :) Travis and I went to dinner at Squatter's and it was supper yummy.  And very nice to have a night to our selves.  My Mom came over to play with the boys.  They had so much fun as always with their Oma. Thanks again Mom.

I remember that I do not like feeling like this though.  As yummy as it was, I am sure paying for it tonight.  My stomach feels soo gross.  I am soo full of food. Almost feel sick :( I think it will be a few more weeks before I do this again. What a great reminder of what I don't want to eat ;)

Hope you all had a great day.

XO Jessica

Weigh in this morning

Wholly moley!!! Ok so I said I would post once I got back from my meeting with Wes.

Weight Lost- 4lbs
Body fat- 27.9% Lost 1.4% this week
Inches- 4 inches all over, mostly my legs, waist and chest were my biggest drops.  So I have literally been working my bunz off :)

This next week is going to be the same too, so excited.  My food and workouts will be the same.  With adding an additional rep to my weight training.  And adding a protein shake when I am almost done with cardio. 

Soon I will have a link to the Top Form website where I get all my supplements, so you can check it out and purchase from there if you want.  I love their meal replacement shakes, they have the best flavor.  I will post more once I get it on my blog.

Yay Me :)

Did you know??

I am not sure how many of you know how much I LOVE The Sweet Tooth Fairy cupcakes... Well I love them a lot.... enough that I would take my lovely family there once a week for a delicious treat... So tonight at my lia sophia meeting my sweet manager brought them for another manager's birthday... "COME ON HERE!!" Is all I could hear in my head.  I have been 100% perfect all week and this is my test I just know it. These are my ultra favorite naughty treat.... Do I dare have one??? Should I???  Drum roll please.... No cupcake for me, however I did bring one home for Mr J so I could watch him enjoy it :)  Maybe after the competition I will treat myself to one.... or two ;) 

Good Night! I hope I can sleep tonight, all I have been dreaming about is my diet, my workouts, what my body is transforming itself into, and how it will look in 61 days... Did you see my cute counter?  


Stay tuned for my measurements in the morning.

Oh my, Oh my.....

Oh my, Oh my... my bunz are sooo sore from my leg workout yesterday :/  funny how I have been lifting for 6 months now and that kicked my butt!! Literally. As sore as I am, I am happy too.  Since that means my muscle is growing and burning fat :)

Oh my, Oh my... I want a treat sooo bad today.  This week I have not had the cravings for one.  My eye has been on the prize of the stage in a few short months.  I was texting with my friend Heather, she recommended chewing gum... so gum it is, and it really helps with wanting some sugar with out having sugar.

Have I mentioned yet how crazy it is that in this short week I can see a great change in my body??? I am so intrigued to see what will happen in the next few weeks as well.  I have this, and can't wait.  Going to try to hit the gym again tonight for some cardio.

Tomorrow is my appointment with my trainer.  So excited to see my results in numbers.  I will be posting as soon as I get home.

Hooray!!

I love my scale today :) I am down 3 lbs, this is the lowest weight I have been in I can not remember how long.. super stoked today. This week has been so empowering, knowing how far I can push myself is amazing.  This morning as I was getting dressed I noticed that in these pants I was putting on my "muffin" was almost gone.  How crazy is that?!?  My body is already changing, my arms are getting hard and like I just said my stomach is shrinking.... HA!!  Yay Me!!

My next appointment is on Tuesday with Wes to weigh in... I sure can not wait to see my progress this week, I know it is going to be amazing. 

Today was my leg's day... it was rough to do my cardio after... which I did only about 10 mins of... I felt like I was going to pass out :(  not good.  Tonight we are going to go on a bike ride, so that will make up for the lack of my cardio today... sure felt like a looser tho.. for a min. 


Have a great rest of your Sunday everyone!!

 

Day 5

Ahh the weekend my most favorite and  unfavored time of the week.... we usually eat out and have too much going on to think about eating 'right'. Today I started it out right by hitting the gym, shoulders and abs, and of course my 45 mins of cardio on the treadmill.... I really need to put together a great play list... suggestions welcome ;)  Of course we had all our usually errands to run.  Then tonight we are going to a movie... yay for date night :)

I am not going to lie, I am so tired.. my body is in freak out mode asking me what the HELL are you doing to me?? Saying "I love all this flab"... well sorry body I DO NOT! My will power has been amazing, I had a lia sophia party last night, my hostess had the best spread of delicious food.... So proud that I didn't even touch it.  Also at Costco today... all those samples :/  ugh... I keep telling myself it is not worth eating, you can have something awesome after the competition... who wants to cheat with mashed potatoes, or that yummy aussie liquorish? Not me...

This afternoon I did another 30 mins of cardio, I will be doing this more often here soon so I figure it may as well start now right.

Well off to get ready for our date.  Things are going well.. Thank you all for your continued support.  I have been overwhelmed by it... literally.  Even people I have never met are rooting for me.  **Huge Thanks and Hugs**

Day 2 and 3

Yesterday was my day two, it went really well. My afternoon where I tend to have food cravings came and went so fast, probably since I was sewing my guts out :) So I can proudly say I have eaten 100% perfect.  My workouts have been great too.  I sure have a hard time doing cardio for 45 min, I have that same little voice in my head that it's OK to get off the treadmill a bit early.... DAMN YOU and SHUT UP!! Is what I told it.

Today.... This morning I got to the gym at 5:20 AM, and probably looked silly since some of the workouts I have on my plan I have NEVER done before, so I was walking back and forth by all the machines trying to find the one I was going to use.  Cardio was super hard today... same silly voice.  Pretty soon it will be gone. Over all today has been great.  I even had to make a yummy breakfast square to take to MOP's. I decided since everyone would be eating the delicious brunch that I would take all my breakfast and eat it there so I would not be tempted by all of it, and believe me it all looked SO good. 


Now I am off to do some more cardio, having this goal has really made this real.  I am in it to win it!!


Till next time....

Day 1

Yesterday was my first day, I went and saw my trainer in the morning, made it to the store so I could have everything I needed to start this journey.  I'm not going to lie I was super nervous about this whole thing.... can I do it?  Will I let that pest of a voice in my head get to me and tell me this will never happen for me cause you can't do it? (yes this is what has been saying for years.) Who is going to think I am crazy?  Will they think I am crazy?

Sigh, I made it though the day NO cheating, even at our Bible study I sure did not help my self to those delicious no bake cookies that were calling my name, I had my shake instead. 

So I have a grueling schedule and food plan.  But this is what it is going to take for me to reach my goals.  Here it is, and please feel the pain as I am writing this.... Next week it may not be as painful ;)

Workout-
5 days of lifting... Heavy
6 days of 45 mins of Cardio, and if I can pull in a few days of going twice for an additional 30 mins I need too.

Food-
Protein Shake, eggs, oatmeal, strawberries, another protein shake with almonds, chicken and yams, tuna and brown rice cakes with pickled asparagus spears, shake with almonds, and for dinner you guessed it chicken with green beans, oh and I forgot to add the 95+ ounces of water I need to get in each day.  Then if I need to have something before bed I can have another shake. 

Over all it was a great way to start, and today has been great too, I will write more about that later.

P.S. I want to especially thank my amazing husband for being so supportive of my choice.  It is so important to me that he has my back on this. xoxo 
 

D-Day

Wow! Where do I start?? So I have been working out now for 6 months, not having any particular goals, but to look and feel better.  I have been bouncing around and some days I would be serious and other not so much.  Plus this winter has been full of sickness.  Between the boys not sleeping well and myself getting sick a few times it was tough to keep my eye on my goal.

Last week I went to see my friend Heather, we have been meaning to get together for a while.  She just competed in her first NPC Open for class B bikini and took 2nd place.  She looks so great.  We got to talking and she encouraged me to compete.... Yes you read that correct.  In June I will be competing my self int the same NPC Open for class B bikini competition.


I have 9.5 weeks to drop half of my body fat and about 43 lbs.  That is why I started this blog.  I will journal daily (I hope) about how I am feeling emotionally and physically.  Please follow me on my Ultimate Journey.  Depending on how brave I am I will be posting my weekly photos to see my transformation as well.


See you soon! ~Jessica~