Sigh

How was everyone's weekend??  Ours was great my baby turned 1!!! We had a fun party for him with all of our family which has grown a lot in the past few months with two new babies :)  I made his cute cake as well.  Let me tell you it tested me tremendously... Here it is:

 Here is my cute Birthday boy too. He loved his balloons that I got him

 His Grams got him this cute toy, obviously he is not supposed to sit in it. He is a silly friend.

Ok onto my update :) This past weekend I went to the NPC show that at first I was planning on doing.  It was so fun to see all the amazing ladies up on stage, it also is great to see the difference between girls that have been coached and ones that have not.  I am really excited and am looking forward to September!!

Like I had said in previous posts these past few weeks have been super hard on me mentally, and physically.  I had my weigh in and measurements.  Not as bad as I thought it would be, however it was not as great as I wanted it too either.  Over all I lost 2 lbs and 2% body fat in 3 weeks.  Am I upset?? Of course, however I did not do the work of eating right and getting enough water most days.  We have decided to focus on this week, day by day.  I am shooting to loose 1-2 lbs this week, I am hoping for 2-3 lbs.  I know I can do this, I keep changing that voice in my head to "YES you can" instead of "NO you can't".  Very powerful to me.  I ask God for his help everyday, and have found verses to help me get through the day if it is a rough one.  

So last week I said I would post photos.  Here are the 3 front and back since I started in April.  I am a bit hesitant to post these, but the transformation is quite amazing.  I still have a ways to go, but I will get there, I am enjoying this journey.  The ups and downs as well.

April 13, 2011 Above

May 25th 2011 Above

  June 20, 2011

I am looking forward to the next week, and getting down a bit more in weight.  I am taking it one day at a time.  That seems to be the best thing for me right now.  Hope everyone has a great healthy day!!

Life

Wow!! Where has the last two weeks gone?? I am trying to keep up with everything.  These past few weeks have been very hard on me... trying to keep my will, and keep the goal upfront in my mind.  A verse kept popping into my head,  Phil 4:13 "I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength".NLV I keep forgetting that I can not do this on my own, I need God to help me and he is willing too. By giving me strength when I am weak, and when am at a weakness He is there to cheer me on as well as to give me the utmost love and support.  

Last week I got to speaking with Sandy, she asked me if I had an idea of what I would like to look like at competition.  Truthfully I had not even thought about what I wanted to look like, I just knew I wanted to look good.  Here are a few links of gals I am aspiring to look like:

I really like how she looks, not too muscular... First Pix

I also like how she looks, esp her bum... Second Pix


Please feel free to let me know what you think of these gals :)


Also she was asking me how I was doing with my meal plan... Honestly I didn't want to answer.  Not that I had been completely not doing it, I was not going at it 100%.  Why??  I am not sure, could be that dumb voice in my head telling me I will never reach my goal, temptation, stress.... you name it I really wanted to just give up.  As we were talking more I knew I could lean on her for her support even by texting her every night so she knew I got through the day at 100%.  My new goal is to get through today, and not worry what happened yesterday or the day before that, just get through today.  I also have noticed that by not blogging and getting my feelings out that I feel like I don't have to be so much accountable for my actions.  So watch out, I will be blogging and sharing every other day if not everyday.


My workouts have been amazing.  My legs are looking HOT!! I even bought some short shorts to wear. Travis told me that he saw some guys checking me out at church yesterday LOL!!  Honestly I did not even notice. My arms and shoulders are getting more and more defined.  I'm loving seeing the transformation. It is amazing what eating right and working out will do to your body.  I love how strong I feel.


I know everyone wants to see pictures of me... I am thinking next week when I do my weigh in I will post some before and recent pix.