My wait is over

Sooo I know I have been MIA for what looks like 3 months now :/  EEK!!  Well in July I decided I wanted to work with a coach named Erik... he has a very long wait list.  I love all that I have read and studied about him, his way of doing things, and all the great things and bodies I saw.  So now 4 months later it is finally my turn, I got the magic email that he was ready to get going on my plan on Sunday.  It also said I would have my plan in 4 business days... TODAY  it has been 4 business days.  I have been checking my email every 20-30 mins today, I am that excited to get going on this new phase in my life.  I have been follow others that are working with him through his forum, and love all of their positive outlook and feed back on their programs.  So as soon as I get my new plan, my plan is to start blogging again about my progress, and journey.  These last few months have been interesting... eating what ever I want, not working out... I feel like a blob... getting back into working out and eating a way I can eat long term is very exciting to me.  Check out my new coach here this is his website, you can also look him up on face book his company is Lean Bodies Consulting.  Have a great day!!

Wowsers!!!

Wowsers!! Since my last post I have taken this all into my own hands, eating what I want when I want....UGH!!  some days I follow my plan, and lately I really have not had the desire if any to care.... about any of it.

With that being said, I have been contemplating what my next step is going to be.  I have discussed this with Travis as well as a few of my friends and Sandy.  I am going to work on getting to my goal weight, then see when the next competition is.  This will take a large amount of stress off of me.

So over the weekend I was thinking of how I was going to accomplish my goal. I broke it down into daily, weekly, monthly, 3 month and a 6 month goal.  I am excited again to get busy eating right, getting my energy back, looking and feeling amazing.

We did decide to move, and that will take place in two weeks.  Also Jax will be starting Pre-school mid August as well.  I am feeling better that those things are done and behind... well with the exception of moving.  But that will go smooth too.  Plus we have some great friends who are willing to help us out.  Thank God!!

This break has shown me how I don't want to feel.  As well as teach me how eating clean and healthy is so important for my life, not just to loose weight, but to have a healthy lifestyle for myself and my family.

Today is a new day {again}  but I am ready for it, and am excited to get back on my journey.  We will see where it takes me.  For now my goal is to get to my goal weight and then see what I want to do from there.


Have a great day!!

Today is a new day

I knew this adventure would be a roller coaster, what I didn't know was how much it would effect me when I was at the bottom of it.   I knew there would be lows, but yesterday I hit a horrible low.  This weekend was super tough.  My mind was running with everything imaginable going through it.... like how am I going to loose this weight in 10 weeks, can I loose this weight, is this goal realistic, are we going to move? If so when and where too?  Need to find a pre-school for Jax, where do I even start looking.  Oh it's time to eat my chicken AGAIN.  UGH!! Did you drink your water?  Did you take your scheduled supplement? And on, and on , and on.... I should have told it to SHUT UP like most times I do.  Well with all of this nonsense going I on I did not eat 100% which was my choice 100%!!  Am I happy with the results? NO. not at all!  But I did it, I put the food in my mouth, I did not do my cardio like I was instructed.  I take full resposibility for my actions, of course I am not that thrilled about it.

So what am I going to do?  Today is a new day, I know I can do this.  September is a bit unrealistic for me at this point.  Does this mean I have given up? No, it means that I will not be competitive enough and not at my best.  Which when I do this I want to look amazing, and I want to give the rest of the competitors a run for their money. 

How does this make me feel?  Not happy... but again, I am responsible for my actions. I have something deep down inside of me that keeps creeping up and creating road blocks for me.  This is very frustrating and very scary to me to even think that I have something {GASP} emotionally wrong with me... I am not even sure I want to deal with it right now. Or really know where to start.

Today I plan on getting through my day, following my meal plan, drinking all my water, taking all my supplements, and doing my cardio which is done already.  One day at a time, enjoying the journey, learning more everyday what God knows I can do, with his strength. 

So if you are wondering where I am at since my last measurement 3 weeks ago.  I have lost 5 lbs, maybe 1% body fat and just a few inches.  Yes this is amazing. I was hoping for a bit more loss in body fat but hey... I am proud of what I have accomplished thus far, I feel great, looking great, and I am at my lowest weight since getting married 10 years ago (almost).  Plus I am sure I am much healthier too.

I thank God daily for his strength, my health, and my well being.  Through Him all thing are possible.

Hope you all have a wonderful day!  Thanks for the continued support from all of you.

Sigh

How was everyone's weekend??  Ours was great my baby turned 1!!! We had a fun party for him with all of our family which has grown a lot in the past few months with two new babies :)  I made his cute cake as well.  Let me tell you it tested me tremendously... Here it is:

 Here is my cute Birthday boy too. He loved his balloons that I got him

 His Grams got him this cute toy, obviously he is not supposed to sit in it. He is a silly friend.

Ok onto my update :) This past weekend I went to the NPC show that at first I was planning on doing.  It was so fun to see all the amazing ladies up on stage, it also is great to see the difference between girls that have been coached and ones that have not.  I am really excited and am looking forward to September!!

Like I had said in previous posts these past few weeks have been super hard on me mentally, and physically.  I had my weigh in and measurements.  Not as bad as I thought it would be, however it was not as great as I wanted it too either.  Over all I lost 2 lbs and 2% body fat in 3 weeks.  Am I upset?? Of course, however I did not do the work of eating right and getting enough water most days.  We have decided to focus on this week, day by day.  I am shooting to loose 1-2 lbs this week, I am hoping for 2-3 lbs.  I know I can do this, I keep changing that voice in my head to "YES you can" instead of "NO you can't".  Very powerful to me.  I ask God for his help everyday, and have found verses to help me get through the day if it is a rough one.  

So last week I said I would post photos.  Here are the 3 front and back since I started in April.  I am a bit hesitant to post these, but the transformation is quite amazing.  I still have a ways to go, but I will get there, I am enjoying this journey.  The ups and downs as well.

April 13, 2011 Above

May 25th 2011 Above

  June 20, 2011

I am looking forward to the next week, and getting down a bit more in weight.  I am taking it one day at a time.  That seems to be the best thing for me right now.  Hope everyone has a great healthy day!!

Life

Wow!! Where has the last two weeks gone?? I am trying to keep up with everything.  These past few weeks have been very hard on me... trying to keep my will, and keep the goal upfront in my mind.  A verse kept popping into my head,  Phil 4:13 "I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength".NLV I keep forgetting that I can not do this on my own, I need God to help me and he is willing too. By giving me strength when I am weak, and when am at a weakness He is there to cheer me on as well as to give me the utmost love and support.  

Last week I got to speaking with Sandy, she asked me if I had an idea of what I would like to look like at competition.  Truthfully I had not even thought about what I wanted to look like, I just knew I wanted to look good.  Here are a few links of gals I am aspiring to look like:

I really like how she looks, not too muscular... First Pix

I also like how she looks, esp her bum... Second Pix


Please feel free to let me know what you think of these gals :)


Also she was asking me how I was doing with my meal plan... Honestly I didn't want to answer.  Not that I had been completely not doing it, I was not going at it 100%.  Why??  I am not sure, could be that dumb voice in my head telling me I will never reach my goal, temptation, stress.... you name it I really wanted to just give up.  As we were talking more I knew I could lean on her for her support even by texting her every night so she knew I got through the day at 100%.  My new goal is to get through today, and not worry what happened yesterday or the day before that, just get through today.  I also have noticed that by not blogging and getting my feelings out that I feel like I don't have to be so much accountable for my actions.  So watch out, I will be blogging and sharing every other day if not everyday.


My workouts have been amazing.  My legs are looking HOT!! I even bought some short shorts to wear. Travis told me that he saw some guys checking me out at church yesterday LOL!!  Honestly I did not even notice. My arms and shoulders are getting more and more defined.  I'm loving seeing the transformation. It is amazing what eating right and working out will do to your body.  I love how strong I feel.


I know everyone wants to see pictures of me... I am thinking next week when I do my weigh in I will post some before and recent pix.
 

Measurment day.... da da da....

I woke up this morning and realized that I get to get measured today.... Hooray!! For some you may dread this day, but I don't.  This is my motivation to keep doing and going.  Here are the results:  I last did measurements 3 weeks and 3 days ago, since then I have lost 5 lbs, 3% body fat and a total of 3 inches.  I am feeling great!!  Sandy of course was super excited for me.  She said I can totally hit my goal with the way things are going.  The NGA's are about 17 weeks away.  I can not wait!!

Yesterday I went to a store at the mall that I have not been able to purchase clothes from for a very long time 10+ years long.  Well while trying on shorts in their biggest size (12) they fell off!!  I didn't dare try a smaller size, but know they would fit.... maybe next time.  I was super stoked to have them be too big.  This is such a fun ride.  Thanks to all my friends for the love and support.  I might post a pix... depends on how it looks ;)

xoxo

WA-HOO!!

So stoked this morning!!! I got on the scale, it's official 11 lbs have left my body :D  This is very exciting for me.  I really can not remember the last time I weighed this, how ever when I did I am sure I was not as  healthy and strong as I am now.  Last night I wanted a treat so bad.  I was good and started sewing so my mind was off eating and on something else.  Can't wait for the next 11+ lbs to come off too!  Have a great day.